The Sun in Libra Square Pluto in Capricorn: Part Two

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Hey everyone, this is Acyuta-bhava from Nightlight Astrology. Happy Friday everybody. Hope you guys are gonna have a great weekend ahead. Today we are going to talk about the big transit that's perfecting over the weekend which is the sun in Libra moving into a square with Pluto and Capricorn. So I'm going to take you through this transit today. We did part one a couple of days ago. So if you haven't yet checked out part one of Sun and Pluto, be sure to check that one out. As well it should add to your overall understanding of this transit which is perfecting over the weekend. So we'll go through all of that in a second. In the meantime, I want to remind you guys, my new class ancient astrology for the modern mystic starts on November 13. We're just weeks away now from the start of my new programme had a good wave of signups this week so we're slowly filling up and getting ready for a new course. The course can be found on my website nightlight astrology.com go to the Courses tab. Underneath the drop down menu, you'll find the first year course this is the first of a two year programme that I offer you can take the first year course alone so you don't have to take both years. A lot of my students do end up taking both years. That's good. And there's also a horror area astrology course and of course called readings and passages which I will be promoted starts in December so I'll be promoting that one next month. At any rate, the first year course is a one year immersion into ancient astrology, this is the best thing honestly, it's the best thing that I've created as a content creator. It encapsulates everything that I know about Natal Astrology that we are one and two programmes combined. But also you know, it's really helpful if you're on your own out there studying to have a structure to work with and a consistent use of craft language. Hellenistic astrology is an amazing form of astrology because it teaches everyone who learns Hellenistic is essentially learning the same techniques and approaches to astrology. One of the things that can be a little bit discouraging sometimes about modern astrology is that there's a lot of practitioner specific forms of astrology. And while every practitioner is unique, it's nice to study the way in which astrology was practised relatively more in a relatively more uniform manner of 1000s of years ago. And for the past couple 1000 years, most astrologers had the same kind of craft language and sort of spoke the same language of delineation. So understanding that background, while also mining the depths of what modern astrology has given us, is sort of the point of the programme. So we're looking at the combination of ancient predictive astrology, which is really kind of like the science of karma, as well as modern psychological astrology and the analysis of character in the birth chart. So both come together in this programme. At the end of the class, we have a lot of live clients that come in and you get to see me read for them. There is no more valuable experience after you learn a boatload of theory than seeing it applied, so that you can see what it actually looks like. It's sort of like you study astrology at conferences, workshops, you hear lectures, you get a lot of good nuggets of wisdom from astrologers that you like, but then it's kind of like well, you know, either have to pay for a reading with someone and and which is worth it, I get readings. Every year, I get readings from different astrologers to see you know what's out there and learn more that way. But it's really helpful to like sit down and see Well, what what is the day in the life of this astrologer like, and that's what the last third of my programme is all about is just taking you into my daily craft work with live clients. And then after the session is done, we sit and talk about it. So at any rate, there's a lot to learn over 100 hours worth of course content on the year tonnes of bonus material, bonus lectures, bonus audio, video, re optional reading assignments, and quizzes, all sorts of stuff. So check it out, early word payment saves you $500 off, be sure to take advantage of that there's a payment plan if you need it. We also have need based tuition. So if for some reason you're hurting financially, you really want to take a course but you're constrained with your budget. Please check that out. We like to make sure that nobody's priced out of this kind of Spiritual Education.

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So at any rate, thank you guys for letting me promote this time of year and we're gonna dive in now to talking about the Sun and Pluto. So here we go. The real time clock up on the screen we're going to see that the sun is in the sign of Libra coming down that last decade of Libra the last 10 degrees of Libra, so we're about to switch into Scorpio season. And the next Misconceptions of the Zodiac video will be on Scorpio too - it is a very misunderstood sign and a lot of ways. So the sun moves through the square with Pluto. Let's take it forward. You can see that it's within a degree on the 16th and then on the 17th we have the square, almost exactly perfect by Sunday morning. That's just passed over the perfection Sunday morning. So Saturday night into Sunday morning, we could say that it's perfecting. And then you can see by Monday, okay, things are starting to die down the sun separating from Pluto by a degree. But then you can see Mars coming in. So next week we'll be studying the Mars Pluto dynamic. And they're back to back. So in some ways, the two are sort of conflated, which means that if you watch the videos we're doing this week on sun Pluto and the ones early next week on Mars, Pluto, you get a really rich feeling for the sun, Mars Pluto dynamic altogether, which are also talked about at the overview of this month's astrology and October's astrological overview. So this is what's coming this weekend.

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And so today what I'm going to do is I'm going to read to you guys some of some passages from a few books that I love, you can kind of see over on the side, I have like a little closet full of all my books. Basically when I'm preparing my talks every day, what I do is I sit down and I usually create an outline for whatever I'm going to speak on. After I've done all my meditation and everything in the morning like that, then I sit down and create my outline for the day, then I create my content for you guys. And usually I'm drawing on at least a few different source texts of a couple of times a week. Sometimes it's more stuff that's coming out of me. Other times it's a combination of me and some of my source texts. So I like to show you guys what I'm using so that you guys can learn from you know the best because most great astrologers out there didn't get their stuff from just purely from their own head. They learned from great teachers of astrology who learned from great teachers of astrology, going all the way down in a sort of disciplic succession to the mystical founders of astrology in the ancient world.

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So at any rate, you guys know this book, the archetypal Universe by Renn Butler, let's see what he has to say about the Sun Pluto. I did a pretty good coverage of it in part one of this video and I spoke a lot about some of my own experiences with sun Pluto and things to watch for. Let's look at what he has to say I'm going to read a few different sections here. character and themes of the Sun Pluto.

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"A sunny charisma with primal depths." Okay, so, you know, sometimes in the world, there are people who have just, they just walk around like that, that song, I'm walking on sunshine, right? And they're just kind of bouncy, and they have that charisma. But if you've ever met someone who has that, but also it's like, you can see that there's a vortex behind their eyes. Like, maybe they're a cult leader even. So like a sunny charisma with that real depth and power behind it. I'm trying to think of an example of someone who's like this. You know who's like this a little bit, honestly, and I have no idea what his chart says about sun Pluto, but, Tom Cruise is a little bit like this, where you see he's got that pep, that zest but there's also like a little bit of a python in there. Oh, that's a funny image. Okay, so yeah, I think he actually might be a cult leader. So at any rate, sunny charisma with primal depth.

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"A capacity to focus one's will and creative forces." By the way, I was born with the sun square Pluto in my birth chart. So I do have some of that myself. "A capacity to focus one's will and creative forces, fiery self expression, surges of drive and enthusiasm, powerful individualism and force of character. 'We dare to be ourselves however frightening or strange that self may prove to be' from Mary Sarton who was born with sun square Pluto or 'the reasonable man adapts himself to the world the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man.' That was GB Shah, who also was born with the sun square Pluto. Strong impulse pulses toward renewal, regeneration and transformation and integration of primal energies a celebration of sexuality, a potent relationship with nature. Quote 'in wildness is the preservation of the world' that was from Thoreau who was born with the sun trine Pluto, a sense of wrestling out one's individuality with the gods impulses towards self overcoming and self conquest. The psycho spiritual death-rebirth struggle, 'man is something that must be overcome' from Nietzsche who had the sun opposite Pluto. An open and upfront examination of one's shadow energies, quote, 'there is strong shadow where there is much light' from Goethe who had the sun square Pluto, quote 'I am as pure as the driven slush' from Teller Bankhead, who had the sun trine Pluto. The interplay of ego and shadow, the marriage of light and dark cycles of personal creation and destruction, a need for healing and transformation of one's father issues."

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So, again, I was born with the sun square Pluto within two degrees in my birth chart. And what did I write my book about? It was called Fishers of Men: the gospel of an ayahuasca vision quest. And it was about these titanic struggles for personal renewal and rebirth with this potent psychedelic plant experience in the Amazon, which I'm more or less participated in for about a decade of my life. 100 plus ceremonies. So those experiences in my book were catalysed by the parallel breakdowns of my father and my grandfather's mental health. And that was why the book was called Fishers of Men because it had to do with the breakdown of certain Christian ethos and a Christian karma really, in my family amongst father and grandfather and myself. So there's that sun Pluto, right? There's the sun Pluto dynamic that the Father issues, the need for creative rebirth. I'm always doing something intense, you know, I'm always like, there's always something some impulse to recreate myself. And I noticed, for example, as the sun has been opposing Pluto in my birth chart over the past couple of years, that was that planet was approaching my sun, I switched from a written blog to YouTube, just decided I was and I was really scared of being on camera honestly, even though I teach in front of people, but putting myself out there on YouTube is like a whole can of worms where I was really afraid of it.

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And then I just felt compelled, like I have to meet this fear and so forth. Interestingly, that coincided with my grandfather dying, that within a month or two of my grandfather dying, I started the YouTube channel. Isn't that interesting? So some really good stuff from Renn Butler on sun Pluto, he says there are some shadow qualities to that he writes about tendency toward excessive willpower and drive obsessive and unhelpful levels of ambition, qualities of ruthlessness, brutality and aggression, urges to rule and dominate others, the willful flaunting of one sexuality a conquering type of charisma, sexual power trips, vulgarity and offensiveness for its own sake, a pattern of obsessive creativity, followed by willful and conscious destruction. For example, when I was in graduate school, and I was writing that book, I went through this phase for about a year where I would write a draft and I was so mad that I could it couldn't, it wasn't coming out like I wanted it to that I would set it on a grill in the backyard of the like house and the property I was renting, like a little gas grill charcoal grill, and I would light it on fire and burn the whole thing, then I would start over.

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So "a pattern of obsessive creativity followed by willful and conscious destruction - Check - went through that phase - to nihilistic tendencies. The habit of acting out one's shadow energies, 'the ego is not master in its own house,' said Freud who had the sun conjoined with Pluto, a personal and egoic identification with the forces of history and evolution, involvement with intense men, willful or domineering father's power struggles with the Father, excessive brightness, or perkiness as a compensation for unfaced inner darkness." Those were things that were particularly exposed in me, for example, when I went through ayahuasca ceremonies for a decade, all of that I dealt with another thing that's really interesting here, involvement with intense men so as Pluto was opposing my son this summer, I started jujitsu lessons thought that would be a fun way to recreate myself at 40 years old. And there were some very intense men, and one of those intense men broke one of my ribs. So I had a one that broke out a fracture. So I fractured a rib over the summer doing jujitsu and got a black eye, which you guys never saw because I used makeup. Which was fun. Or maybe you did see it, I don't know. But I had, it wasn't bad one. So it was it was pretty mild, but I had a small black eye and I also broke a rib. And it was so funny as I was like going through the Pluto Sun opposition and I actually read this very passage while I was going to jujitsu and contemplating you know, what I was doing and everything and I had a lot of fun so no offence to anyone I know there's people who watch my channel who are really into jujitsu and God bless you guys what an intense and beautiful practice it is also a little too dangerous for me after breaking a rib and so then I just said nope, Good, I got the Sun Pluto message. We're good. But it was interesting. Sun square Pluto.

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Here's another personal story. And I wrote about this in my book. So in my book Fishers of Men, this is something that I wrote about when I was young, there was a older boy who abused me in my, sort of in my early childhood, I think I was about four years old. And when one of the things that was very surprising for me was the level at which those memories came flooding up to the surface during ayahuasca ceremonies, that was some of the most intense, scary, difficult stuff that I ever had to work through, were in my very first, maybe 10 or 20 ceremonies ayahuasca working through the memories of being abused when I was little by this older boy. And that was something that, you know, ended up being one of the most cathartic things to write about in that book, even though the book spans a lot of history and dealing with the karma of men, and so forth. That one in particular, was maybe one of the most memorable and terrifying elements of what ended up getting addressed in the ayahuasca ceremonies very sun Pluto again.

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So someone is a native of sun Pluto, I can tell you that I've really learned a lot and also in the Christian church growing up, my father was a very, very much a sun Pluto figure in the sense that he was a very charismatic leader who had a background of like, really serious abuse and his family. This is all stuff I've written about in my book. So it might - if it sounds like TMI, just know that I wrote a book about all this so and one of the things that he grew up with was violent abuse of alcoholism in his home from his father. And then eventually his father kind of became a, as my dad would put it, I don't know what the technical term is - he became a born again Christian, my grandfather did, but was still in essence, an alcoholic who wasn't drinking anymore. My father always called him a dry drunk at any rate. So the interesting thing was that my dad, as a Christian minister, had never really dealt with that. So when my father ended up having to take a mental health sabbatical because of a nervous breakdown, and sort of suicidal ideations that he was going through, and he was hospitalised for a while and this is all in my book again. One of the things that he was going through, because my father ended up going to the Amazon to drink ayahuasca as well. And this is actually part of the book if you ever want to read it. But when he went to the Amazon, he ended up addressing that stuff, right and so it was this succession of dealing with Father pain, and that's often with the sun Pluto we'll get into as well is this history of pain and suffering in the darkness hidden through the masculine, the masculine line and a family or whatever the case might be.

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So at any rate so here's a few things I also picked from Liz Greene's book this is one of my favourites, the last book that I read was from was the Archetypal Universe by Renn Butler. Renn is actually going to come and give a class in my Speaker Series over the winter, I believe or spring so really excited to have him actually come and give a class for us at some point. By the way, if you ever want to check out the classes I have go to my website nightlight astrology.com, click on the events page and you can sign up for the the speaker series are absolutely free. You get to hear three cool speakers you can get the recording if you can't make it live, those are totally free and open to the public, supported by my Kickstarter every year.

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So here's some Liz Greene's book, Apollo's Chariot: the meaning of the astrological sun. Liz Greene is a modern master in many ways. I think that she is single single handedly her you know and and along with other people responsible for making astrology something that can work hand in hand with modern depth psychology archetypal psychology, therapy, things like that. So she writes about Apollo and the Python. The sun is associated with the sun god Apollo. So she talks about Apollo and the Python and this is a very sun Pluto like area of her text where she's basically talking about aspects of the sun that feed right into the sun's natural archetypal relationship with Pluto.

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So this is from a talk that she gave in the audience is asking a question someone in the audience: "This is the sun activated by crisis. The creative spirit comes out when someone faces a stormy sea they have to survive. They swim through miles to the shore. That's creative act. Liz says, they do say that Necessity is the mother of invention. I think I mentioned at the beginning of the seminar that the sun must struggle, the sun cannot develop its capacity to give light without a struggle. That is why in every solar myth, the Sun God must battle with a dragon, a snake, a monster, or some other horrible creature from the depths. In order to fulfil his destiny. Osiris must battle with set mithras must slay the bull, Marduk must conquer Tiamat. Apollo must conquer the Python in order to take his rightful place at Delphi. In some solar myths, the struggle is cyclical and occurs again and again. Each time the battle is won, the sun rises again. Then the monster returns either in the same form as in the mythical Cyrus, or in some other form, as in the story of Herrick Lee's or solar hero often associated with Apollo, and other stories, the battle ends and defeat on the incarnate level as in the tale of Orpheus, but results in the deification of the hero, he takes his place as a God, our sense of solar specialness seems to depend on struggle, the process of development of the self in childhood arises from struggle, the ego forms through struggle, we must fight to get out of the birth canal, we must pit ourselves against our own regressive pull back into the womb, we have to fight our parents, we have to kick and scream and go through the terrible twos. You know that one, we have to kick in, or we have to kick someone in order to become separate. We have to struggle to assert ourselves in the world. Without this continuing struggle, there is no solar light, the two things go together. Likewise, when we express the sun, we create struggle. By becoming ourselves, we generate struggles which require us to become ourselves. Apollo has a lot of trouble with plutonic figures like the Python and the ironies. He's always struggling with the forces of darkness that he never destroys them, he creates a different balance. Because he casts so much light he makes these catatonic creatures angry, he himself activates the struggle because he is polarised against their realm. And he is also part of their realm and only exists because of them. In some mysterious way. He is the product of the very thing he is battling with because their darkness generates the necessity for light. Whoo, love it.

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Let's start with another of Apollo's mythic functions, the breaker of curses, the sun, God has the power to release the individual from a family curse. I think you can all understand what this might mean on a psychological level, the sense of being a unique individual with their own special destiny lessens the power that family complexes have over us. And their identification with the family psyche isn't as consuming when the sun is shining. So she goes on to talk about the sun and Pluto together as a breaker of curses. So let's talk about those two things together, the struggle for individuation. And the need that the and I talked about this actually went out yesterday in the video on misconceptions about the sign of Libra and I talked about the fact that the sun is in its fall in Libra, where Saturn is exalted. And Saturn is exalted, or Saturn is in its fall in areas where the sun is exalted. It talks about the fact that, you know, in the ancient imagination before Pluto, as a planet was known, the same concept was there between the sun and Saturn. There's a sense that darkness and light have a relationship with one another that's eternal. And so one of the things that you know, we have to be careful about with sun Pluto is it's healthy to have archetypal, individuation struggles. This is part of how the self is reborn, renewed, regenerated. This is part of how we evolve and change. And it's part of how you know, enlightenment works really that we, we chew on our decisions and contemplate the consequences. We contemplate the universe. And through grappling with darkness, we come to a light that goes beyond the literal contrast between light and dark we come to news, we come to sense of awakening and understanding the light that goes beyond the physical light, the light that goes beyond the physical duality between light and dark, it's a different kind of light. And this is born through participating in the struggle of opposites in their eternality.

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So Pluto and the sun can represent the that exact struggle and the illuminating effect that it has beyond the struggle between good and bad. The total illumination that goes beyond, right and wrong, good and bad, because you somehow understood that they're intertwined. So it's this holistic light. On the other hand, the danger of sun Pluto. And this is one of the reasons personally that I eventually, for example, had to, you know, walk away from the ayahuasca experience for myself, is that the sun Pluto can also put there's a polarisation with you know, squares opposition's squares are of the nature of Mars. Sun, Pluto says if you're not struggling with something, life and death, overcoming heroically all the time, then you know, you're not really alive or, or, you know, sort of like hero worship, I would say, you know, in the United States, for example, in particular, one of the main cults that we all worship out unconsciously is the cult of the hero. I'm going to be virtuous and I'm going to save the world. I'm going to save people. I'm you know, it's political. I'm going to bring us back to the good old days, I'm going to be the bastion of progressivism, whatever the case might be. People are sold on heroic narratives, I'm going to overcome my problem, I'm going to rise up, I'm going to be sovereign, I'm going to be strong, I'm going to overcome darkness like this, right? It's at some point, you know, along the spiritual path, most great teachers and saints and sages of all traditions have said one thing, that struggle is never ending that struggle is built into the fabric of the Wheel of Time, spinning in an eternal round, no beginning and no end. So good luck with that. Good luck trying to slay the Python that never dies.

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It does not mean that we should not engage in heroism, it does not mean that we should like just like Arjuna is told by Krishna in the Bhagavad Gita, like either you're not just supposed to check out on the battlefield and head to a cave to meditate. That's not really yoga, according to Krishna in the Gita, but at the same time, he's very clear, look, this the battle and who wins or loses absolutely not the point either. So to the extent that we get wrapped up in the hero myth, thinking that victory in any literal sense, delivers us redeems us enlightens us once and for all is us, just not true. And Pluto and the sun, can get into that feeling of the constant need to conquer and rise above and, and that if I do this enough, eventually you know, I'll be my, my face will be added to the, you know, to the to the Mount Rushmore of Olympus, you know, I'll be up there with the gods and for like, my delusions of grandeur just keep me fighting. And people like Joseph Campbell, how many names do I see a day, you know, on Instagram or whatever at times that are just like, you know, today I'm one I'm a hero with 1000 faces, you know what I'm going to rise up, it's a me day, I'm doing something for myself, all of this kind of stuff. And it's true, there's times where we have to fight some demons and we have to rise above and those struggles are real, but the sun Pluto can think that they can lose track of the fact that they're eternal. And what we're looking for is a light that goes beyond this polarisation between light and dark is a different kind of light. So sun Pluto can deliver that light, but it can also be like the obsessiveness of the altar call every single week.

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When I was a kid at youth group, and I've told this story before, every single week, you know, it's like the same Usual Suspects would show up, ready to fall on their knees and weep and repent and get saved. And I was like, well, I never understood I would get so mad at me youth pastors, you know, I'd be like they're, they're being nice. So first of all, they were merciful and compassionate and my knee and my judgmental ism just didn't understand but but, you know, the truth is, I would be like, Look, Timmy needs Jesus every week. I thought Jesus saves you once and for all. Why is why is Timmy coming back here to get saved all over again a week later? I think he's just addicted to the emotional high of the whole thing. Sorry, that's my two cents. I'm going to hell. And you know, like, of course, I never could actually say that. But that's how I felt about it. And I would ask my dad about it. My dad is a minister is very compassionate. He would say something like, Well, you know, for some people, they haven't yet figured out how to be close to God in a very everyday kind of way. And so when they come to church on on Sundays or when they come to youth group, there's going to be this feeling of needing to have a big emotional experience because they're, they're not yet able to have smaller and more regular emotional experiences with God. Wise guy, right. He's my father, very wise minister. I said, Well, thanks dad, like that. That makes a lot of sense to me, I guess. But I remember just feeling like there was something not quite right about that. And looking back on it, I understand that, you know, there's a bit of a hypocrite in me back then because I actually love the same kinds of things but in very different ways, you know, and as a sun Pluto person, one of the things that I came to realise one of the my biggest insights ever was in year 10 of drinking Ayahuasca I started repeating repeatedly seeing that memory of me being like was to me Oh is coming up here to get saved again and I was like, Well, no, why am I coming up here to slug some kind of crazy, you know, psychedelic beverage and like, get shot out the cosmic, you know, birth canal and struggle for my existence and you know, face heaven and hell and like, I was like, What am I doing? And it wasn't that like, believe me, like those 10 years of drinking Ayahuasca, I would not be who I am today, I would not be in a clean sober lifestyle, I wouldn't know how to be a father, I wouldn't know how to be a husband. Like those experiences, I wouldn't have yoga. Those experiences, there's not enough positive things that I could say about what they did for my life. But I also realised that this could not go on forever. Because there was a way in which I was starting to realise that there was my own need for like, a sort of obsessive drive to have a catharsis, you know, like, Uh, oh, I've I've got to get saved again, I've got to have this kind of. And I and I noticed this on social media, too, you know, this when social media was younger and newer, it was like, there's a I don't see it as much anymore. Maybe it's just like, I've changed in terms of how the algorithm works or something. But I would notice people having altar calls on social media. Like little video clips of people being like, I need to change. I'm doing it, I'm blowing it all up, like just confessional style, you know, rants about how I'm transforming or you know, and I think this is just human I just know you know, not trying to minimalize anyone's pain or suffering or whatever, but you know, just that, that need that we have to like, kind of obsessively demonstrate Oh, I'm born again I've died and I've been reborn I have some new understanding I faced my demon I purge this thing I'm you know, whatever. So how do we, in other words, how do we honour this archetypal complex of Sun Pluto in our lives while also not being grabbed by it not being taken over by it to the extent that we become you know, altar addicts, where we're falling over repenting and asking to be born again every two seconds. For me as the sun was opposing Pluto, over the summer, I realised I'm literally going into a situation where I'm grappling with the sun and Pluto through these jujitsu experiences, which I really enjoyed. But I was also like, first of all there for me just just speaking personally now to anyone else who's into jujitsu out there, but they were terrifying. They were very cathartic healing, regenerative, you know, it was like a physical masculine altar call every week of just like, grappling with these forces and visiting all sorts of, you know, of course, for me psychologically, it offered a really rich place to reflect upon and explore elements of the masculinity in my own psyche and so forth. And so it was so intense you know, I broke a rib.

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And then I had this really funny thing happened. As the Sun was opposing Pluto my chart, I had this dream after I broke my rib, or fractured it. My given name when I was born, not my initiated name as a monk. But my given name is Adam. And I had this dream where after I broke my rib, where, you know, it was kind of like an archetypal image of Adam's Rib being taken to create Eve. And it was this moment of also realising like, there's something in, not just my own, but I think in the male psyche in general in which something of the masculine image and it's very sun Pluto, I think has other archetypes too - Mars, maybe Mars Pluto - but that needs to be broken down in order to create and give space for the divine feminine. And I'm just speaking purely of the aspects of people who identify as male or masculine, who need to grapple with and come to terms with the the feminine aspect of their psyche. And so it was really funny that when I broke my rib, and I had this dream about feminine being made, and it felt like it was the feminine being made more whole and complete within myself. Through this breaking of the rib in this archetypal dream image of the rib of Adam creating Eve and stuff like that, and that was all sun Pluto.

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I see a Jungian therapist, and one of the things I highly recommend if you're someone who reads charts for other people is to have someone you speak to pretty regularly because you're going to need to process you know, if you're not processing your own stuff with someone. I mean, I love to meditate of the prayer. I mean, my daily practices a monk are great, but also having that counselling dynamic if you're going to speak to other people. So every week I meet with a Jungian therapist. And so that was rich content for us to you know, to go into dream work together like that. That was a big one. So at any rate, I'm just rambling now, but the other thing I was gonna say okay, so there's the in the hero worship. Hero worship is important, because there's a light and dark side to all archetypal complex is usually the dark side comes in when the complex is not made conscious that we are not the complex, but the soul has a relationship with the complex as like a bundle of images that it wants to explore through experience. And, you know, the sun Pluto and the need for rebirth, the need for heroism, the need to overcome something that, you know, we have to honour that without getting it, you know, what is the real meaning of idolatry? Are you ever thought about that not like idolatry, you know, you you're not a Christian, you worship some pagan image or something. It's not like that. But what's the real meaning of idolatry. The real meaning of idolatry is that we get so enamoured and caught up by an archetypal complex, which is a God, right? That we forget the soul. And when we forget the soul, then we can't have a relationship with the God, which is an aspect of God. So when you try to identify with an archetypal image that is, in a sense, a god or a complex of gods, then what you're doing is you're being identified with the God. And at which point that kind of psychic conflation is idolatry Because ultimately, God doesn't want us to be identifying ourselves as God or with God, but entering into a conscious, meaningful, participatory relationship where our own agency and ontology is alive and well within the dynamic. That's the meaning of an enlightened connection with our source. Idolatry would be getting overly identified and seized, grabbed by the complexes. My guru says about karmic experiences in this realm are ultimately all there also for us, because when we come through these experiences, soul can't be destroyed. The soul can't get lost in these experiences forever. It's only temporary that it does. We experienced the karma of doing so. And when we do so it's like, Okay, well, I had that experience. And, you know, it taught me something. And usually I come out with more reflective, participatory awareness, self consciousness, I come out and I'm like, Okay, well, I got identified in this thing. So there's a role that it plays is this tendency to conflate ourselves with an archetype or an image to grab are seized by it, it teaches us it's slowly awakening us. But also, we can't just they can't just do the work for us, right we we, the the consciousness takes effort with our own will and agency.

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So one of the ultimate meanings in my opinion of the Sun square Pluto, or any hard sun Pluto aspect is that there is a way in which we are going to get seized by things. And there's also the need to rise up and have an individuated experience where I can come away and see myself in the light that goes beyond the struggle that I'm not ultimately made or broken by whether I come out on top or not with the forces that I struggle with. If we can come to that realisation, then slowly it's like, Okay, I'm a being like, and there's a there's a sense of our own eternal nature that starts to emerge and that light goes beyond the literal duality between light and dark that is often made manifest in a sun Pluto dynamic. So anyway, I hope this was fun for you. I wanted to share a little bit more personally with you since I have this aspect of my birth chart. I also love to hear from you guys who have sun Pluto squares in your birth chart or sun Pluto, opposition's or whatever you might have in your birth chart. If you have a son Pluto story you'd like to share, use the hashtag grabbed and then put in the aspects on square Pluto. tell your story. Keep it really short and concise. Give us an illustration of sun Pluto in your life over the weekend if you want to. We'll be probably telling some of these stories later next week or the week after, when sun and Mars go through. The squares will reflect back on some of this in another episode of storytelling. Don't forget again my new classes coming up ancient astrology for the modern mystic. I'm really excited to share all that with you guys. If you want to read my book by the way, I'll just flash it up on the screen in case you've never heard of it or even know what I'm talking about. Most people know this about me but I kind of came to I came to astrology and yoga vcv about a decade worth of delving into Iosco shamanism. Here's my book fishers of men the gospel of Naya wasco vision quest, you get on Kindle or though it's not in print, the hardcover is not in print anymore, but you can pick up a used copy I'm pretty sure or Kindle so if you guys want to read it, just know that I was like in my mid to late 20s when I wrote it, so it's a long time ago that I wrote this book. And in some ways, I wouldn't write the same book again. But I think just in terms of a sun Pluto book, it's about a sun Pluto is a get so Anyway, hope you guys have a great weekend and we will see you all again on Monday. Take it easy, everyone. Bye

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Hey everyone, this is Acyuta-bhava from Nightlight Astrology. Happy Friday everybody. Hope you guys are gonna have a great weekend ahead. Today we are going to talk about the big transit that's perfecting over the weekend which is the sun in Libra moving into a square with Pluto and Capricorn. So I'm going to take you through this transit today. We did part one a couple of days ago. So if you haven't yet checked out part one of Sun and Pluto, be sure to check that one out. As well it should add to your overall understanding of this transit which is perfecting over the weekend. So we'll go through all of that in a second. In the meantime, I want to remind you guys, my new class ancient astrology for the modern mystic starts on November 13. We're just weeks away now from the start of my new programme had a good wave of signups this week so we're slowly filling up and getting ready for a new course. The course can be found on my website nightlight astrology.com go to the Courses tab. Underneath the drop down menu, you'll find the first year course this is the first of a two year programme that I offer you can take the first year course alone so you don't have to take both years. A lot of my students do end up taking both years. That's good. And there's also a horror area astrology course and of course called readings and passages which I will be promoted starts in December so I'll be promoting that one next month. At any rate, the first year course is a one year immersion into ancient astrology, this is the best thing honestly, it's the best thing that I've created as a content creator. It encapsulates everything that I know about Natal Astrology that we are one and two programmes combined. But also you know, it's really helpful if you're on your own out there studying to have a structure to work with and a consistent use of craft language. Hellenistic astrology is an amazing form of astrology because it teaches everyone who learns Hellenistic is essentially learning the same techniques and approaches to astrology. One of the things that can be a little bit discouraging sometimes about modern astrology is that there's a lot of practitioner specific forms of astrology. And while every practitioner is unique, it's nice to study the way in which astrology was practised relatively more in a relatively more uniform manner of 1000s of years ago. And for the past couple 1000 years, most astrologers had the same kind of craft language and sort of spoke the same language of delineation. So understanding that background, while also mining the depths of what modern astrology has given us, is sort of the point of the programme. So we're looking at the combination of ancient predictive astrology, which is really kind of like the science of karma, as well as modern psychological astrology and the analysis of character in the birth chart. So both come together in this programme. At the end of the class, we have a lot of live clients that come in and you get to see me read for them. There is no more valuable experience after you learn a boatload of theory than seeing it applied, so that you can see what it actually looks like. It's sort of like you study astrology at conferences, workshops, you hear lectures, you get a lot of good nuggets of wisdom from astrologers that you like, but then it's kind of like well, you know, either have to pay for a reading with someone and and which is worth it, I get readings. Every year, I get readings from different astrologers to see you know what's out there and learn more that way. But it's really helpful to like sit down and see Well, what what is the day in the life of this astrologer like, and that's what the last third of my programme is all about is just taking you into my daily craft work with live clients. And then after the session is done, we sit and talk about it. So at any rate, there's a lot to learn over 100 hours worth of course content on the year tonnes of bonus material, bonus lectures, bonus audio, video, re optional reading assignments, and quizzes, all sorts of stuff. So check it out, early word payment saves you $500 off, be sure to take advantage of that there's a payment plan if you need it. We also have need based tuition. So if for some reason you're hurting financially, you really want to take a course but you're constrained with your budget. Please check that out. We like to make sure that nobody's priced out of this kind of Spiritual Education.

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So at any rate, thank you guys for letting me promote this time of year and we're gonna dive in now to talking about the Sun and Pluto. So here we go. The real time clock up on the screen we're going to see that the sun is in the sign of Libra coming down that last decade of Libra the last 10 degrees of Libra, so we're about to switch into Scorpio season. And the next Misconceptions of the Zodiac video will be on Scorpio too - it is a very misunderstood sign and a lot of ways. So the sun moves through the square with Pluto. Let's take it forward. You can see that it's within a degree on the 16th and then on the 17th we have the square, almost exactly perfect by Sunday morning. That's just passed over the perfection Sunday morning. So Saturday night into Sunday morning, we could say that it's perfecting. And then you can see by Monday, okay, things are starting to die down the sun separating from Pluto by a degree. But then you can see Mars coming in. So next week we'll be studying the Mars Pluto dynamic. And they're back to back. So in some ways, the two are sort of conflated, which means that if you watch the videos we're doing this week on sun Pluto and the ones early next week on Mars, Pluto, you get a really rich feeling for the sun, Mars Pluto dynamic altogether, which are also talked about at the overview of this month's astrology and October's astrological overview. So this is what's coming this weekend.

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And so today what I'm going to do is I'm going to read to you guys some of some passages from a few books that I love, you can kind of see over on the side, I have like a little closet full of all my books. Basically when I'm preparing my talks every day, what I do is I sit down and I usually create an outline for whatever I'm going to speak on. After I've done all my meditation and everything in the morning like that, then I sit down and create my outline for the day, then I create my content for you guys. And usually I'm drawing on at least a few different source texts of a couple of times a week. Sometimes it's more stuff that's coming out of me. Other times it's a combination of me and some of my source texts. So I like to show you guys what I'm using so that you guys can learn from you know the best because most great astrologers out there didn't get their stuff from just purely from their own head. They learned from great teachers of astrology who learned from great teachers of astrology, going all the way down in a sort of disciplic succession to the mystical founders of astrology in the ancient world.

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So at any rate, you guys know this book, the archetypal Universe by Renn Butler, let's see what he has to say about the Sun Pluto. I did a pretty good coverage of it in part one of this video and I spoke a lot about some of my own experiences with sun Pluto and things to watch for. Let's look at what he has to say I'm going to read a few different sections here. character and themes of the Sun Pluto.

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"A sunny charisma with primal depths." Okay, so, you know, sometimes in the world, there are people who have just, they just walk around like that, that song, I'm walking on sunshine, right? And they're just kind of bouncy, and they have that charisma. But if you've ever met someone who has that, but also it's like, you can see that there's a vortex behind their eyes. Like, maybe they're a cult leader even. So like a sunny charisma with that real depth and power behind it. I'm trying to think of an example of someone who's like this. You know who's like this a little bit, honestly, and I have no idea what his chart says about sun Pluto, but, Tom Cruise is a little bit like this, where you see he's got that pep, that zest but there's also like a little bit of a python in there. Oh, that's a funny image. Okay, so yeah, I think he actually might be a cult leader. So at any rate, sunny charisma with primal depth.

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"A capacity to focus one's will and creative forces." By the way, I was born with the sun square Pluto in my birth chart. So I do have some of that myself. "A capacity to focus one's will and creative forces, fiery self expression, surges of drive and enthusiasm, powerful individualism and force of character. 'We dare to be ourselves however frightening or strange that self may prove to be' from Mary Sarton who was born with sun square Pluto or 'the reasonable man adapts himself to the world the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man.' That was GB Shah, who also was born with the sun square Pluto. Strong impulse pulses toward renewal, regeneration and transformation and integration of primal energies a celebration of sexuality, a potent relationship with nature. Quote 'in wildness is the preservation of the world' that was from Thoreau who was born with the sun trine Pluto, a sense of wrestling out one's individuality with the gods impulses towards self overcoming and self conquest. The psycho spiritual death-rebirth struggle, 'man is something that must be overcome' from Nietzsche who had the sun opposite Pluto. An open and upfront examination of one's shadow energies, quote, 'there is strong shadow where there is much light' from Goethe who had the sun square Pluto, quote 'I am as pure as the driven slush' from Teller Bankhead, who had the sun trine Pluto. The interplay of ego and shadow, the marriage of light and dark cycles of personal creation and destruction, a need for healing and transformation of one's father issues."

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So, again, I was born with the sun square Pluto within two degrees in my birth chart. And what did I write my book about? It was called Fishers of Men: the gospel of an ayahuasca vision quest. And it was about these titanic struggles for personal renewal and rebirth with this potent psychedelic plant experience in the Amazon, which I'm more or less participated in for about a decade of my life. 100 plus ceremonies. So those experiences in my book were catalysed by the parallel breakdowns of my father and my grandfather's mental health. And that was why the book was called Fishers of Men because it had to do with the breakdown of certain Christian ethos and a Christian karma really, in my family amongst father and grandfather and myself. So there's that sun Pluto, right? There's the sun Pluto dynamic that the Father issues, the need for creative rebirth. I'm always doing something intense, you know, I'm always like, there's always something some impulse to recreate myself. And I noticed, for example, as the sun has been opposing Pluto in my birth chart over the past couple of years, that was that planet was approaching my sun, I switched from a written blog to YouTube, just decided I was and I was really scared of being on camera honestly, even though I teach in front of people, but putting myself out there on YouTube is like a whole can of worms where I was really afraid of it.

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And then I just felt compelled, like I have to meet this fear and so forth. Interestingly, that coincided with my grandfather dying, that within a month or two of my grandfather dying, I started the YouTube channel. Isn't that interesting? So some really good stuff from Renn Butler on sun Pluto, he says there are some shadow qualities to that he writes about tendency toward excessive willpower and drive obsessive and unhelpful levels of ambition, qualities of ruthlessness, brutality and aggression, urges to rule and dominate others, the willful flaunting of one sexuality a conquering type of charisma, sexual power trips, vulgarity and offensiveness for its own sake, a pattern of obsessive creativity, followed by willful and conscious destruction. For example, when I was in graduate school, and I was writing that book, I went through this phase for about a year where I would write a draft and I was so mad that I could it couldn't, it wasn't coming out like I wanted it to that I would set it on a grill in the backyard of the like house and the property I was renting, like a little gas grill charcoal grill, and I would light it on fire and burn the whole thing, then I would start over.

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So "a pattern of obsessive creativity followed by willful and conscious destruction - Check - went through that phase - to nihilistic tendencies. The habit of acting out one's shadow energies, 'the ego is not master in its own house,' said Freud who had the sun conjoined with Pluto, a personal and egoic identification with the forces of history and evolution, involvement with intense men, willful or domineering father's power struggles with the Father, excessive brightness, or perkiness as a compensation for unfaced inner darkness." Those were things that were particularly exposed in me, for example, when I went through ayahuasca ceremonies for a decade, all of that I dealt with another thing that's really interesting here, involvement with intense men so as Pluto was opposing my son this summer, I started jujitsu lessons thought that would be a fun way to recreate myself at 40 years old. And there were some very intense men, and one of those intense men broke one of my ribs. So I had a one that broke out a fracture. So I fractured a rib over the summer doing jujitsu and got a black eye, which you guys never saw because I used makeup. Which was fun. Or maybe you did see it, I don't know. But I had, it wasn't bad one. So it was it was pretty mild, but I had a small black eye and I also broke a rib. And it was so funny as I was like going through the Pluto Sun opposition and I actually read this very passage while I was going to jujitsu and contemplating you know, what I was doing and everything and I had a lot of fun so no offence to anyone I know there's people who watch my channel who are really into jujitsu and God bless you guys what an intense and beautiful practice it is also a little too dangerous for me after breaking a rib and so then I just said nope, Good, I got the Sun Pluto message. We're good. But it was interesting. Sun square Pluto.

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Here's another personal story. And I wrote about this in my book. So in my book Fishers of Men, this is something that I wrote about when I was young, there was a older boy who abused me in my, sort of in my early childhood, I think I was about four years old. And when one of the things that was very surprising for me was the level at which those memories came flooding up to the surface during ayahuasca ceremonies, that was some of the most intense, scary, difficult stuff that I ever had to work through, were in my very first, maybe 10 or 20 ceremonies ayahuasca working through the memories of being abused when I was little by this older boy. And that was something that, you know, ended up being one of the most cathartic things to write about in that book, even though the book spans a lot of history and dealing with the karma of men, and so forth. That one in particular, was maybe one of the most memorable and terrifying elements of what ended up getting addressed in the ayahuasca ceremonies very sun Pluto again.

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So someone is a native of sun Pluto, I can tell you that I've really learned a lot and also in the Christian church growing up, my father was a very, very much a sun Pluto figure in the sense that he was a very charismatic leader who had a background of like, really serious abuse and his family. This is all stuff I've written about in my book. So it might - if it sounds like TMI, just know that I wrote a book about all this so and one of the things that he grew up with was violent abuse of alcoholism in his home from his father. And then eventually his father kind of became a, as my dad would put it, I don't know what the technical term is - he became a born again Christian, my grandfather did, but was still in essence, an alcoholic who wasn't drinking anymore. My father always called him a dry drunk at any rate. So the interesting thing was that my dad, as a Christian minister, had never really dealt with that. So when my father ended up having to take a mental health sabbatical because of a nervous breakdown, and sort of suicidal ideations that he was going through, and he was hospitalised for a while and this is all in my book again. One of the things that he was going through, because my father ended up going to the Amazon to drink ayahuasca as well. And this is actually part of the book if you ever want to read it. But when he went to the Amazon, he ended up addressing that stuff, right and so it was this succession of dealing with Father pain, and that's often with the sun Pluto we'll get into as well is this history of pain and suffering in the darkness hidden through the masculine, the masculine line and a family or whatever the case might be.

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So at any rate so here's a few things I also picked from Liz Greene's book this is one of my favourites, the last book that I read was from was the Archetypal Universe by Renn Butler. Renn is actually going to come and give a class in my Speaker Series over the winter, I believe or spring so really excited to have him actually come and give a class for us at some point. By the way, if you ever want to check out the classes I have go to my website nightlight astrology.com, click on the events page and you can sign up for the the speaker series are absolutely free. You get to hear three cool speakers you can get the recording if you can't make it live, those are totally free and open to the public, supported by my Kickstarter every year.

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So here's some Liz Greene's book, Apollo's Chariot: the meaning of the astrological sun. Liz Greene is a modern master in many ways. I think that she is single single handedly her you know and and along with other people responsible for making astrology something that can work hand in hand with modern depth psychology archetypal psychology, therapy, things like that. So she writes about Apollo and the Python. The sun is associated with the sun god Apollo. So she talks about Apollo and the Python and this is a very sun Pluto like area of her text where she's basically talking about aspects of the sun that feed right into the sun's natural archetypal relationship with Pluto.

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So this is from a talk that she gave in the audience is asking a question someone in the audience: "This is the sun activated by crisis. The creative spirit comes out when someone faces a stormy sea they have to survive. They swim through miles to the shore. That's creative act. Liz says, they do say that Necessity is the mother of invention. I think I mentioned at the beginning of the seminar that the sun must struggle, the sun cannot develop its capacity to give light without a struggle. That is why in every solar myth, the Sun God must battle with a dragon, a snake, a monster, or some other horrible creature from the depths. In order to fulfil his destiny. Osiris must battle with set mithras must slay the bull, Marduk must conquer Tiamat. Apollo must conquer the Python in order to take his rightful place at Delphi. In some solar myths, the struggle is cyclical and occurs again and again. Each time the battle is won, the sun rises again. Then the monster returns either in the same form as in the mythical Cyrus, or in some other form, as in the story of Herrick Lee's or solar hero often associated with Apollo, and other stories, the battle ends and defeat on the incarnate level as in the tale of Orpheus, but results in the deification of the hero, he takes his place as a God, our sense of solar specialness seems to depend on struggle, the process of development of the self in childhood arises from struggle, the ego forms through struggle, we must fight to get out of the birth canal, we must pit ourselves against our own regressive pull back into the womb, we have to fight our parents, we have to kick and scream and go through the terrible twos. You know that one, we have to kick in, or we have to kick someone in order to become separate. We have to struggle to assert ourselves in the world. Without this continuing struggle, there is no solar light, the two things go together. Likewise, when we express the sun, we create struggle. By becoming ourselves, we generate struggles which require us to become ourselves. Apollo has a lot of trouble with plutonic figures like the Python and the ironies. He's always struggling with the forces of darkness that he never destroys them, he creates a different balance. Because he casts so much light he makes these catatonic creatures angry, he himself activates the struggle because he is polarised against their realm. And he is also part of their realm and only exists because of them. In some mysterious way. He is the product of the very thing he is battling with because their darkness generates the necessity for light. Whoo, love it.

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Let's start with another of Apollo's mythic functions, the breaker of curses, the sun, God has the power to release the individual from a family curse. I think you can all understand what this might mean on a psychological level, the sense of being a unique individual with their own special destiny lessens the power that family complexes have over us. And their identification with the family psyche isn't as consuming when the sun is shining. So she goes on to talk about the sun and Pluto together as a breaker of curses. So let's talk about those two things together, the struggle for individuation. And the need that the and I talked about this actually went out yesterday in the video on misconceptions about the sign of Libra and I talked about the fact that the sun is in its fall in Libra, where Saturn is exalted. And Saturn is exalted, or Saturn is in its fall in areas where the sun is exalted. It talks about the fact that, you know, in the ancient imagination before Pluto, as a planet was known, the same concept was there between the sun and Saturn. There's a sense that darkness and light have a relationship with one another that's eternal. And so one of the things that you know, we have to be careful about with sun Pluto is it's healthy to have archetypal, individuation struggles. This is part of how the self is reborn, renewed, regenerated. This is part of how we evolve and change. And it's part of how you know, enlightenment works really that we, we chew on our decisions and contemplate the consequences. We contemplate the universe. And through grappling with darkness, we come to a light that goes beyond the literal contrast between light and dark we come to news, we come to sense of awakening and understanding the light that goes beyond the physical light, the light that goes beyond the physical duality between light and dark, it's a different kind of light. And this is born through participating in the struggle of opposites in their eternality.

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So Pluto and the sun can represent the that exact struggle and the illuminating effect that it has beyond the struggle between good and bad. The total illumination that goes beyond, right and wrong, good and bad, because you somehow understood that they're intertwined. So it's this holistic light. On the other hand, the danger of sun Pluto. And this is one of the reasons personally that I eventually, for example, had to, you know, walk away from the ayahuasca experience for myself, is that the sun Pluto can also put there's a polarisation with you know, squares opposition's squares are of the nature of Mars. Sun, Pluto says if you're not struggling with something, life and death, overcoming heroically all the time, then you know, you're not really alive or, or, you know, sort of like hero worship, I would say, you know, in the United States, for example, in particular, one of the main cults that we all worship out unconsciously is the cult of the hero. I'm going to be virtuous and I'm going to save the world. I'm going to save people. I'm you know, it's political. I'm going to bring us back to the good old days, I'm going to be the bastion of progressivism, whatever the case might be. People are sold on heroic narratives, I'm going to overcome my problem, I'm going to rise up, I'm going to be sovereign, I'm going to be strong, I'm going to overcome darkness like this, right? It's at some point, you know, along the spiritual path, most great teachers and saints and sages of all traditions have said one thing, that struggle is never ending that struggle is built into the fabric of the Wheel of Time, spinning in an eternal round, no beginning and no end. So good luck with that. Good luck trying to slay the Python that never dies.

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It does not mean that we should not engage in heroism, it does not mean that we should like just like Arjuna is told by Krishna in the Bhagavad Gita, like either you're not just supposed to check out on the battlefield and head to a cave to meditate. That's not really yoga, according to Krishna in the Gita, but at the same time, he's very clear, look, this the battle and who wins or loses absolutely not the point either. So to the extent that we get wrapped up in the hero myth, thinking that victory in any literal sense, delivers us redeems us enlightens us once and for all is us, just not true. And Pluto and the sun, can get into that feeling of the constant need to conquer and rise above and, and that if I do this enough, eventually you know, I'll be my, my face will be added to the, you know, to the to the Mount Rushmore of Olympus, you know, I'll be up there with the gods and for like, my delusions of grandeur just keep me fighting. And people like Joseph Campbell, how many names do I see a day, you know, on Instagram or whatever at times that are just like, you know, today I'm one I'm a hero with 1000 faces, you know what I'm going to rise up, it's a me day, I'm doing something for myself, all of this kind of stuff. And it's true, there's times where we have to fight some demons and we have to rise above and those struggles are real, but the sun Pluto can think that they can lose track of the fact that they're eternal. And what we're looking for is a light that goes beyond this polarisation between light and dark is a different kind of light. So sun Pluto can deliver that light, but it can also be like the obsessiveness of the altar call every single week.

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When I was a kid at youth group, and I've told this story before, every single week, you know, it's like the same Usual Suspects would show up, ready to fall on their knees and weep and repent and get saved. And I was like, well, I never understood I would get so mad at me youth pastors, you know, I'd be like they're, they're being nice. So first of all, they were merciful and compassionate and my knee and my judgmental ism just didn't understand but but, you know, the truth is, I would be like, Look, Timmy needs Jesus every week. I thought Jesus saves you once and for all. Why is why is Timmy coming back here to get saved all over again a week later? I think he's just addicted to the emotional high of the whole thing. Sorry, that's my two cents. I'm going to hell. And you know, like, of course, I never could actually say that. But that's how I felt about it. And I would ask my dad about it. My dad is a minister is very compassionate. He would say something like, Well, you know, for some people, they haven't yet figured out how to be close to God in a very everyday kind of way. And so when they come to church on on Sundays or when they come to youth group, there's going to be this feeling of needing to have a big emotional experience because they're, they're not yet able to have smaller and more regular emotional experiences with God. Wise guy, right. He's my father, very wise minister. I said, Well, thanks dad, like that. That makes a lot of sense to me, I guess. But I remember just feeling like there was something not quite right about that. And looking back on it, I understand that, you know, there's a bit of a hypocrite in me back then because I actually love the same kinds of things but in very different ways, you know, and as a sun Pluto person, one of the things that I came to realise one of the my biggest insights ever was in year 10 of drinking Ayahuasca I started repeating repeatedly seeing that memory of me being like was to me Oh is coming up here to get saved again and I was like, Well, no, why am I coming up here to slug some kind of crazy, you know, psychedelic beverage and like, get shot out the cosmic, you know, birth canal and struggle for my existence and you know, face heaven and hell and like, I was like, What am I doing? And it wasn't that like, believe me, like those 10 years of drinking Ayahuasca, I would not be who I am today, I would not be in a clean sober lifestyle, I wouldn't know how to be a father, I wouldn't know how to be a husband. Like those experiences, I wouldn't have yoga. Those experiences, there's not enough positive things that I could say about what they did for my life. But I also realised that this could not go on forever. Because there was a way in which I was starting to realise that there was my own need for like, a sort of obsessive drive to have a catharsis, you know, like, Uh, oh, I've I've got to get saved again, I've got to have this kind of. And I and I noticed this on social media, too, you know, this when social media was younger and newer, it was like, there's a I don't see it as much anymore. Maybe it's just like, I've changed in terms of how the algorithm works or something. But I would notice people having altar calls on social media. Like little video clips of people being like, I need to change. I'm doing it, I'm blowing it all up, like just confessional style, you know, rants about how I'm transforming or you know, and I think this is just human I just know you know, not trying to minimalize anyone's pain or suffering or whatever, but you know, just that, that need that we have to like, kind of obsessively demonstrate Oh, I'm born again I've died and I've been reborn I have some new understanding I faced my demon I purge this thing I'm you know, whatever. So how do we, in other words, how do we honour this archetypal complex of Sun Pluto in our lives while also not being grabbed by it not being taken over by it to the extent that we become you know, altar addicts, where we're falling over repenting and asking to be born again every two seconds. For me as the sun was opposing Pluto, over the summer, I realised I'm literally going into a situation where I'm grappling with the sun and Pluto through these jujitsu experiences, which I really enjoyed. But I was also like, first of all there for me just just speaking personally now to anyone else who's into jujitsu out there, but they were terrifying. They were very cathartic healing, regenerative, you know, it was like a physical masculine altar call every week of just like, grappling with these forces and visiting all sorts of, you know, of course, for me psychologically, it offered a really rich place to reflect upon and explore elements of the masculinity in my own psyche and so forth. And so it was so intense you know, I broke a rib.

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And then I had this really funny thing happened. As the Sun was opposing Pluto my chart, I had this dream after I broke my rib, or fractured it. My given name when I was born, not my initiated name as a monk. But my given name is Adam. And I had this dream where after I broke my rib, where, you know, it was kind of like an archetypal image of Adam's Rib being taken to create Eve. And it was this moment of also realising like, there's something in, not just my own, but I think in the male psyche in general in which something of the masculine image and it's very sun Pluto, I think has other archetypes too - Mars, maybe Mars Pluto - but that needs to be broken down in order to create and give space for the divine feminine. And I'm just speaking purely of the aspects of people who identify as male or masculine, who need to grapple with and come to terms with the the feminine aspect of their psyche. And so it was really funny that when I broke my rib, and I had this dream about feminine being made, and it felt like it was the feminine being made more whole and complete within myself. Through this breaking of the rib in this archetypal dream image of the rib of Adam creating Eve and stuff like that, and that was all sun Pluto.

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I see a Jungian therapist, and one of the things I highly recommend if you're someone who reads charts for other people is to have someone you speak to pretty regularly because you're going to need to process you know, if you're not processing your own stuff with someone. I mean, I love to meditate of the prayer. I mean, my daily practices a monk are great, but also having that counselling dynamic if you're going to speak to other people. So every week I meet with a Jungian therapist. And so that was rich content for us to you know, to go into dream work together like that. That was a big one. So at any rate, I'm just rambling now, but the other thing I was gonna say okay, so there's the in the hero worship. Hero worship is important, because there's a light and dark side to all archetypal complex is usually the dark side comes in when the complex is not made conscious that we are not the complex, but the soul has a relationship with the complex as like a bundle of images that it wants to explore through experience. And, you know, the sun Pluto and the need for rebirth, the need for heroism, the need to overcome something that, you know, we have to honour that without getting it, you know, what is the real meaning of idolatry? Are you ever thought about that not like idolatry, you know, you you're not a Christian, you worship some pagan image or something. It's not like that. But what's the real meaning of idolatry. The real meaning of idolatry is that we get so enamoured and caught up by an archetypal complex, which is a God, right? That we forget the soul. And when we forget the soul, then we can't have a relationship with the God, which is an aspect of God. So when you try to identify with an archetypal image that is, in a sense, a god or a complex of gods, then what you're doing is you're being identified with the God. And at which point that kind of psychic conflation is idolatry Because ultimately, God doesn't want us to be identifying ourselves as God or with God, but entering into a conscious, meaningful, participatory relationship where our own agency and ontology is alive and well within the dynamic. That's the meaning of an enlightened connection with our source. Idolatry would be getting overly identified and seized, grabbed by the complexes. My guru says about karmic experiences in this realm are ultimately all there also for us, because when we come through these experiences, soul can't be destroyed. The soul can't get lost in these experiences forever. It's only temporary that it does. We experienced the karma of doing so. And when we do so it's like, Okay, well, I had that experience. And, you know, it taught me something. And usually I come out with more reflective, participatory awareness, self consciousness, I come out and I'm like, Okay, well, I got identified in this thing. So there's a role that it plays is this tendency to conflate ourselves with an archetype or an image to grab are seized by it, it teaches us it's slowly awakening us. But also, we can't just they can't just do the work for us, right we we, the the consciousness takes effort with our own will and agency.

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So one of the ultimate meanings in my opinion of the Sun square Pluto, or any hard sun Pluto aspect is that there is a way in which we are going to get seized by things. And there's also the need to rise up and have an individuated experience where I can come away and see myself in the light that goes beyond the struggle that I'm not ultimately made or broken by whether I come out on top or not with the forces that I struggle with. If we can come to that realisation, then slowly it's like, Okay, I'm a being like, and there's a there's a sense of our own eternal nature that starts to emerge and that light goes beyond the literal duality between light and dark that is often made manifest in a sun Pluto dynamic. So anyway, I hope this was fun for you. I wanted to share a little bit more personally with you since I have this aspect of my birth chart. I also love to hear from you guys who have sun Pluto squares in your birth chart or sun Pluto, opposition's or whatever you might have in your birth chart. If you have a son Pluto story you'd like to share, use the hashtag grabbed and then put in the aspects on square Pluto. tell your story. Keep it really short and concise. Give us an illustration of sun Pluto in your life over the weekend if you want to. We'll be probably telling some of these stories later next week or the week after, when sun and Mars go through. The squares will reflect back on some of this in another episode of storytelling. Don't forget again my new classes coming up ancient astrology for the modern mystic. I'm really excited to share all that with you guys. If you want to read my book by the way, I'll just flash it up on the screen in case you've never heard of it or even know what I'm talking about. Most people know this about me but I kind of came to I came to astrology and yoga vcv about a decade worth of delving into Iosco shamanism. Here's my book fishers of men the gospel of Naya wasco vision quest, you get on Kindle or though it's not in print, the hardcover is not in print anymore, but you can pick up a used copy I'm pretty sure or Kindle so if you guys want to read it, just know that I was like in my mid to late 20s when I wrote it, so it's a long time ago that I wrote this book. And in some ways, I wouldn't write the same book again. But I think just in terms of a sun Pluto book, it's about a sun Pluto is a get so Anyway, hope you guys have a great weekend and we will see you all again on Monday. Take it easy, everyone. Bye