Saturn Square Uranus, Part Three: I Just Don’t Care!

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All right. Hi everyone. This is Acyuta-bhava from nightlight astrology and today I am live streaming and we are going to talk once more about Saturn square with Uranus, which is perfecting today and tomorrow. We're going to look at a passage from one of my favourite teachers of bhakti yoga by Sridhara Maharaj, a book that he has called Follow the Angels. And there's a passage that I want to read just a little excerpt from what's going on, take a look at an excerpt from James Hillman's A Blue Fire, where he he talks about something that is very applicable for us as we're going through Saturn square with Uranus.

We are also going to take a look at a particular hexagram from the I ching as we continue to contemplate or meditate on this transit. So we already did this week. This week, we've taken a look at this transit a couple of times, you can go back and see a talk I did called the Saturn Uranus in the march of time, looked at an Annie Dillard essay, the Upanishads and other eaching hexagram. Yesterday, Raph from Radiant Tarot came on and we did readings through all the 12 signs, which was awesome. And today I want to go a little bit deeper into the heart of this transit from the philosophical point of view and kind of a deeper meditation again. And so I thought I'd do a live stream because it's fun to share a live space with all of you, and it's the holidays. So let's have some fun with this.

Before we do that, I'm going to pop up the Real Time Clock show you the transit refresh you on it, and we'll we'll dive in. But as you guys know, it is we have just eight days left to go in my annual Kickstarter. And let's see, we are just about a little less I think about 440. Backers shy of our goal now. So we're coming down the homestretch eight days left to go, just a handful more and large in the grand scheme of things a handful more contributions that we need this year. So I am going to flash this up on the screen tell you about the Kickstarter. Now you guys have heard me talk about it before. Thank you. Thank you to everyone who has already pitched in and donated. We have made a lot of really great progress and we are nearing the finish line. So still need about 400 people who watch this channel out of 1000s to pitch in and support it in the year ahead. You're supporting me and my family are supporting a staff 10 people, two people are crucial to this. But the programmes that I teach astrology programmes that I teach around four years worth of astrology programmes, the majority of people who take those programmes, take it on need based tuition. You might have people who are paying $25 A month literally to take these programmes. The reason that I'm able to do that and not have a bottom line for my programmes, in terms of our overall business goals is because of this Kickstarter, the Kickstarter does well, there's a we can open the programme and make it super affordable and accessible. The other thing we're planning on doing with the funds that we raise is to build a donation based reading clinics so that alumni from the programme can get a chance to gain experience for people reading for people and people can have a more affordable option. Those people get paid but like my first year, for example of reading, I did everything by donation just to gather experience. So a more affordable range for for people out there who may need help in terms of the affordability of an astrology reading, but also helpful experience for students who are coming out of the programmes that I teach and an opportunity for them to make a little money doing it too. So that is a goal of ours that we we have we're also building a community herbal medicine garden, and I'm really excited to say that as Venus is retrograding into a conjunction with Pluto happens to be in my own ninth house, which is the place of religions, higher learning, etc.

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Now let's dive into taking a look at the real time clock. And we're going to start looking at Saturn and Uranus again today. So here's the real time clock. And I want to what I really want to highlight to you is the Saturn Uranus dynamic is perfecting, here's Saturn at 11 degrees and two minutes, Uranus at 11 degrees and six minutes of Taurus that will be perfecting today into tomorrow. So you're going to see Saturn, Uranus squaring again tomorrow, they're still in the square. And this, you know really lasts until Saturn gets all the way to the next degree, that's when you're going to start to see the most intense energy sort of start to wane. And that you're you're looking at about the beginning of the year. Right. So in the meantime, as this is perfecting, notice that Venus is coming back through the conjunction with Pluto.

To me, the thing that had just happened in my faith community, and sorry, my camera's having a little bit of an issue. The thing that just happened in my faith community is really key because it really exemplifies the energies, one of the things all all together, like if you take them and combine them all at once. For example, Saturn Uranus is often a planetary transit that is described as one of incremental awakenings an incremental revolution. Okay, so how long does it take some things that you know, like, in my mind, you know, women should be given the right to be, have just as much authority as men in religious traditions around the world. For a long time like this. It's been it's been backward for far too long, you know what I mean? Yet with Saturn, Uranus, the thing that can happen is this feeling of like, well, that's progress. I feel like I was elated yesterday, as Venus is conjoining Pluto and Capricorn and Saturn is squaring Uranus to hear that the vote was taken and that women will be allowed to be officially recognised as gurus in this, you know, in this tradition and can initiate people. And it said, it's a lot like saying women could be like clergy in the Catholic Church, it's like that kind of a deal. Now, for me, this was one of the reasons that I almost didn't even get involved in the tradition from the get go, because there's elements of the, you know, this tradition that to me, just were not up to date, like just you know, from for me personally.

But one of the things that I've always believed in is that, if you see if you see that there's goodness, at the heart of a tradition, for example, Bhakti really captured my heart. And I just thought, Okay, what do I do about the fact that the core of this religious experience is beautiful, it captures my heart, but the institutional side, the human side, and the historical side are filled with issues. I thought, well, you know, that's the same thing that I experienced in the Christian church growing up, exact same thing. It's the same thing that I experienced in the even in the somewhat less formal world of Ayahuasca shamanism. There's really, I can't think of one arena in my life or anything has ever meant something really deep and good has offered something really valuable to me, where the human or historical or institutional side of it something like that hasn't been really frustrating. Or, in some ways, you know, stuck in the past or whatever. I just, it's, it's like a human experience. Saturn, Uranus gives us this feeling that at times, that if something isn't perfect, you know, then you should get rid of it, that it's not if it's not, if it's not perfect, then you shouldn't reject it completely.

On the other hand, what so one of the things that like really captured me when I came into the tradition was I noticed all the teachers that I was meeting in the bhakti yoga tradition, men and women, were advocating for this kind of change for this kind of progress from within the tradition, and I really appreciated it here are people who've been dedicated to this path for decades and decades of their life, and who have done so while also living with and tolerating some of the most ignorant aspects of the inhuman limitations and constraints that have been part of it. Saturn Uranus is not an easy combination in the sense that progress will come slowly, sometimes, what sometimes there's going to be big leaps. And sometimes those big leaps, you hit one, and as soon as you hit one, it can actually bring up this feeling of like, that took too long, you know, like that it can, it can galvanise you because you realise that, oh, that was a breakthrough. But, you know, that was a breakthrough that was overdue. You know, what I mean, that kind of feeling, which can then further galvanise the feeling of, it can't be as long it can't be as difficult it can't wait as long to take the next step, whatever that next step is with personal or relational or institutional or whatever it is, whatever area of your life.

So Saturn, Uranus is like the sense of breakthrough, but also this, you know, it's kind of like, you ever been in a relationship with someone, and they recognise a pattern that you've been living with for a long time. And you go, Well, thank God, they've recognised it. Like, let's say, for example, this is very common with alcoholics. An alcoholic realises that they need help. Everyone in the family who's been living with the alcoholic is, in a sense, relieved, like, Oh, my God, thank, you know, this is amazing. They're realising they have a problem. At the same time for everyone in the family, what happens? Oftentimes, their resentment for that individual will intensify very suddenly. Whereas previously, they were living in surviving and dealing with it. And it seemed like everything was fine. Or they were, they were sort of trying to just allow this, this person to come along and evolve at their own pace, but it was painful to watch, and so forth. They need help. And all of a sudden, you would think that everyone would just be totally happy that Well, thank God, you may legitimately be really happy. At the same time, the resentment can be there, you can be like, I've been living with this for so long. This took too long, you know, and suddenly, the person who's like, I just had the breakthrough, I realised I need help, I'm going to rehab I'm doing this or that, how can you be mad at me, it's like, well, because there's history here, you know what I mean. And so sometimes Saturn, Uranus brings this weird feeling of progress. But then the floodgates have opened, and all that's been stuck, has to has to also be dealt with, even as the the freedom is coming through. And I've noticed that a lot with my clients over the past year that there's this weird way in which the revolution comes. But there's resentments there with how long it took or how backward it was that something couldn't just move in the way it should. And then you have to suddenly, it's like, you have to deal with that as well. So Saturn, Uranus can move things forward suddenly, but also bring up the trauma of whatever was holding something back. I hope that analogy makes some sense.

I wanted to share with that, that with everybody first. Today's talk is actually not so much about the incremental nature of revolution. But if you're experiencing that incremental revolution, that feeling of two steps forward, one step back, or also, just knowing that when you're when you're living with something that's stuck, and it makes a breakthrough, that it's normal to be both excited about the breakthrough will also finally allowed to deal with the feelings that were there that didn't get a chance to express themselves that were stuck or held back. So it can be a complicated thing to have a Saturn Uranus breakthrough moment.

I've seen this with a lot of my clients lately, it's like I'm having a breakthrough and it's good but I'm also upset. I'm also frustrated I'm so that that that tension between breakthrough and frustration at the same exact time can be very present during a Saturn Uranus dynamic. Yesterday, my wife and I talking about this big breakthrough in our tradition, were crying, my wife was crying, she was happy. And then also getting into conversations about how could it have taken this long, you know what I mean? Like, and, and that needed to come up too. So whatever you're going through, I just know that that dynamic is normal.

And remember also life is like, you think of life and spiritual evolution, it's very similar. It's an inside, it's an inside job you have to, it's like, you have to cling to the thing that's really good inside of yourself, while tolerating all of the BS that can come up and know that incrementally, you know, we work through things and become our better our best self. We have to have patience with the process. It's very easy if we're not making progress or we're stuck to kind of to judge ourselves in pretty black or white terms. No, like, if you're not exactly where you want to be, then we quit. And we try to find something new or different that we think will solve everything, though it's hard, slow, work incremental. And having to deal with that frustration, just part of the process. Anyway. Okay, so that aside, just wanted to share that story with you guys.

I actually want to talk about I wrote something in my journal the other day, I wrote this in my journal, I said, at some point, I jotted down a note to myself, make a make a video at some point on Saturn, Uranus talking about the phrase, I don't care. Okay. Because for the past year, I wrote this down, because for the past year, I have noticed over and over again, in my client readings, especially that people are using that phrase, it's the weirdest thing like it's so prevalent than it actually last week came up in my own personal, I see a union therapist. So it actually came up in that session. And it made me realise I wrote this down. And I need to make a video about this. I have seen this come up.

So many times, people coming into readings, and this is what they say there's two things really that they say, but they're very similar. I'm realising that I just don't care anymore. Now, it could be about just in general, but often it's about someone or something in particular, I know I should care. But I just don't care anymore. It's like I just can't find the prayer juice inside of me. It's like the weirdest thing, like how well how is it that I've heard that so many times in the past year. And of course, every time I've heard it, most of the times in the readings that I've done, it's been with Saturn and Uranus strongly configured to planets in their natal chart are the angles.

I just don't care anymore. I'm done caring. And along side of that sentiment is usually one of two things. The companion sentiment is, I feel like I need something new. I just don't care/I feel like I need something new. Or maybe very similarly. I need someone new something, someone something like that. So over and over and over again. I just don't care and then I need someone or something new.

And I just had to thinking like, why is this like Why have I heard this so many times? And the other one I was thinking about dropped out of my head was I don't feel inspired. So I don't care or I don't feel inspired. And then I'm looking for some noose new someone or something to inspire me or to make me feel like I care again. Like where's the What is this loss of inspiration coming? You could chalk it up to a lot of things, divisiveness, COVID, whatever. We're you know, in that essay I read the other day by Annie Dillard, you might remember that she said journalists sometimes use the phrase compassion fatigue. I run out of the ability to care. And this goes alongside what we were saying about Saturn as a planet that can often feel very objectifying, like you're just getting ground down by the gears of time.

And remember, in Annie Dillard essay, she talked a lot about the the all of the most mundane elements of life and the way that you can get so ground down by them. So I want to talk a little bit more about that today and why I think this I don't care thing is so prevalent. Remember that Saturn really equals the most boring, mundane, workaday world, it doesn't always that's not the only thing Saturn represents. But that is one of the things that Saturn has represented for 1000s of years in astrology are the most repetitive, it's like there's a dimension of our experience. It makes us feel like the world is just a time bound prison. You know, you, you know, it's like, get up, do the same things over again. Go to sleep repeat. And how much of life is spent doing really mundane things to like, how many hours of your life how many years of your life do you end up sleeping? How many hours or years of your life do you end up eating or preparing food? How many you know years of your life? Do you end up working at jobs that you don't love?

How many years of your life do you spend? bored or restless? Right? There's, if you you add it up, it's it's amazing. Home from sort of Saturn standpoint, how much of life can feel like a repetitive, boring, unimaginative grind? One of the things that I see over and over and over again, is the way that people tend to, you know, the way how do people respond to that, basically, in readings with people and working with students and being a yoga studio owner for 10 years? How do I see people deal with that element of life, and it's pretty much the same. There will be this sense of, like, raising my spirits and saying, Well, it's hard work, but I'm going to do it. And it's always the same like that. It's always this, like, I know, it's hard. I'm not kidding myself. It's not easy. Being a parent, it's not always easy. Being a spouse, it's not easy going to work. It's not easy paying the bills. There's so much of that every day, right? That we're, and but it's this kind of like, Well, are you ask people, How are they doing good, but busy, you know, busy? You know, it's always like that. It's like, but I'm in it. I'm grinding through it, you know. So this kind of mentality is also Saturnine.

Remember that Saturn is exalted in the sign of Libra. The place of balance the scales, beauty, harmony, justice, truth. So a lot of the way that we end up dealing with the most mundane aspects of life, picking up kids changing diapers, what I mean, all of the stuff is we, we we have this kind of, you know, sort of cynical, sarcastic sense of humour about it. Or maybe we also say like, well, I'm in it, I'm working it, right.

And it's important to realise that well, that's noble and virtuous, like, Saturn in Libra is like the gravi toss of trying to like, live nobly live, live with virtue, do the right thing. Even if it's hard work, you know what I mean? And that you and you can feel a kind of dignity or pride if you just work hard through this stuff, and try to just suffer through it nobly. You know, that Saturn, like peak Saturn in Libra, and I know because I've got it my chart, just suffer with dignity. You know, early bird severe the Protestant work ethic had an early bird catches the worm, you know, just just get after it, just do your best. A lot of the most appealing gospels out there in the self help industry have to do with like, you know, just take responsibility for yourself. Life's not easy, but just put in the work. Just accept that it's suffering and just work hard in it. You know, maybe there's some there's some nobility in these ideas. I mean, Saturn's not just like some evil planet, but Saturn did rule, but was also referred to Saturn was the ruler of what was referred to as feigned appearances.

And what you have to consider with Saturn always is that underneath these, this gravitas, I'm in it to work hard through the difficult parts of life, you know, I'm suffering nobly of doing virtuous things that are good in the world. You know, like very sort of Christian I'm in the I mean, the schoolyard of life, taking my lessons from Saturn, and I'm just, it sucks, but I'm doing it, you know, this kind of thing, which we, again, not bad, we can all get into this. But underneath these displays of beauty, virtue, goodness, if truth be told, is often apathy, indifference. There is underneath it all, there is an I don't care. And this space is really taboo.

You can't because if you walk around the world, and you let on that I don't care about my kids. At this moment, I don't care about being a marriage partner, or I don't care about being, you know, a dutiful son or daughter, or I just don't care about being an astrologer. I just don't care about my spirituality. I don't even care about myself. I just don't care. That is taboo territory. What's wrong? You know? What's wrong with you? Why, why don't you care. You shouldn't be able to, you should always care. And if you don't have it in you, if you don't always care, then it means you must never really care.

So that's why we can't show anyone that sometimes we don't care because the belief out there and in ourselves too, is that if I don't care sometimes, and I must not care any of the time. And I think part of the Saturn Uranus dynamic has to do with that and how it goes exhausting how deeply exhausting it is to walk around this world feeling like we care about everything all the time. Uranus is the ruler of inspiration Uranus awakens, right Uranus is anything that defies tradition or the past in favour of innovation in the future.

If something is tired dead, outworn, stagnant, Uranus is like the spark of like life or a lightning strike that suddenly illuminates cracks in old structure gives you the inspiration to do something new. And so Saturn Uranus combinations, will often look like they are bringing something new out of something old replacing something that's outworn with some new form of inspiration. But here's the problem is that for many of us, that becomes a really vicious cycle. It becomes the antidote to the I don't care complex that I was just describing was. So in other words, when I see this, again, myself, my clients, you're walking through life, and you're like, the real truth inside is that there are at least a few times a day, where your, your care metre is just empty, you just, I can't care anymore. The care metre is empty, we can admit that you cannot admit that because again, what would that mean? That would mean that you must not care at all, ever. Because underlying there if there's any apathy or indifference or emptiness, if there's not some level of care and concern and involvement, and you know, it's aimed in this virtuous way, or you're trying to be in it, and always show up. And if there's any, if there's any show that I just don't care, I'm on empty right now, then you must not care at all. So one of the things that we do is we go out and try to method act, and grit and grind. With a feigned appearance, all of the things that we should be caring about all the things that we should be doing well could be our spiritual practice could be our relationships could be our job could be parenting, whatever it is, you just grit your teeth and get through it thinking, you know, I'll just fake it till I make it. Because I do care. I am a caring person, gosh, I am a caring person, you know.

But then eventually, you're also an honest person, right? And, honestly, you get to a point where you're like, I just don't care anymore. But I can't because I can't accept that I'm an uncaring person, then it must be that I don't care about this person or this thing anymore, which means I need some new thing, or some new person or some new, something new to care about. And Uranus comes in and says, Yeah, you see, you've been stuck at the altar of the past. Isn't Saturn such an enemy? Making you grind along and stay committed to things that have long past their expiration date? How about me, right? Uranus is like, I'm the God of revolution, I've got this lightning rod of creative, new future oriented stuff for you to get excited about. And that will give you the enthusiasm and the feeling of care and concern and conviction and passion and then you'll be in it again.

And so worshipping at the altar of the past, worshipping at the alter the future becomes this vicious cycle that is almost always constantly trying to address an underlying emptiness, or an underlying apathy or an underlying indifference or it can be this is very benign to I don't I'm not trying to say that the I don't care state is evil, more about that in a second. But there's an underlying state where you just can't care anymore. And that's okay.

But stay in the cycle. Right. So Saturn, Uranus. And that's why I think so many of my clients with Saturn Uranus over the past year, he keeps saying, it's like, I just don't care anymore. I'm done with the caring about this thing, or my investment in this thing, or my passion or my inspiration for this thing. There's got to be something new. You know, there's got to be some new thing to take me on. What is it? What do you see astrologer? I'm like, well, in all honesty, as I've reflected on it more and more throughout the year, I see Saturn, I see all of us in in a certain sense when we get into the space being grabbed by Saturn and Uranus, the tug of war between the altar of the past and the altar of the future, committing and grind your way through things that are hard to always care about. That's what commitment is, isn't it? It means showing up even when you don't want to. Right oh, there's something to that. But then Uranus it's like yeah, but maybe something's outworn. Maybe you just need something new. And there's something to that too, isn't there?

But underneath all of it, I think is a profound allergic reaction to feeling like we don't care about things, and I would much prefer to see my clients myself and people start to ask, what is it? What does it really mean when we reach? What is that space? That is? What is the I don't care space? Is it cruel indifference? Is it just some form of emptiness? Is that exhaustion mentally, emotionally, physically? What is that space, actually, because I doubt highly, that it really means that because you lose concern or care, that you're not someone who cares that you don't aren't someone who's concerned that you're not someone who has passion or enthusiasm for the things in your life.

Probably more problematic is our aversion or allergic reaction to that state. So let's figure out what that state is. So I asked the eaching this morning, I said, Well, what is that state? That underlying state of apathy? Is it mean that people are essentially selfish? You know, does it mean that everyone's just faking it and insincere? Does it mean that everyone's just virtue signalling and walking through life? Like, you know, little, you know, little little automatons trying to be the just the most virtuous automaton that there is trying to do all the right things constantly. But feeling exhausts? Is that just it we're all just faking it?

So these were the sentiments that I poured into asking the I ching this morning, what is that state. And the hexagram that I got back was number 48, which is called the well. It's one of the simplest hexagram images in the eaching, one of the most complex, beautiful teachings of the I ching. It's a picture of a well at the centre of a city or at the centre of a village or town or something like that. Here's what we know about the image of this well, the web is common to everybody, everyone draws from it. The well does its task without complaining or arguing. It just is constantly giving. It's constantly available.

It does its task fulfils its role, without any sense of its role being special. To the extent that it's so common, and so giving and so generous that everyone in the city takes it for granted. It's so vital and so essential, yet it doesn't draw any attention to itself, people can easily forget, if this well wasn't here, we'd all be screwed. The well quietly does what it does every day. So regularly, so commonly for everyone without any distinction, providing water nourishment for everybody, without drawing any attention to itself. And while also allowing everyone to sort of rest without feeling worry about whether this thing will perform its role or not just kind of assume that it will. It's so plentiful, so abundant, just take it for granted, and it wants to be taken for granted, it doesn't want you to have to remember it. The well is our soul.

Right? The well is our soul. The soul is a picture of something inside of us, that cares for us without us knowing that it's caring for us. It serves us without drawing attention to itself constantly. It's a picture of a renewable resource, whose success is somehow rooted in the fact that we take it for granted somehow, until it breaks down until something's wrong with the well. All of a sudden, then we go like, Oh my gosh, this is vital. This is essential. And in that space, we realise how vital and how essential it is that we we suddenly go. I've taken this thing for granted.

That's the beauty of the well. The well is broken, it can bring everyone together. Because everyone draws from this thing. It's everyone's problem. You know what I mean? So everyone suddenly has to be concerned. Everyone also feels such deep appreciation for the well and the day that it breaks because everyone realises Well, we all need this, despite whatever our problems with each other might be or all the other dramas going on. Like the whole story kind of goes down the tubes if the well isn't working. What a vital essential thing this is, right.

So the truth is that the soul is here in a human body. And most of what we do day by day, the things that we try to pour soulfulness into because they're being poured into material energies and material energies naturally. For example, one of the great laws of material energy is entropy. Like things rise up, and then they fall down. So when we're trying to pour soulfulness into material things, it is natural, it is fundamental, that those things will rise and fall.

That we can pour soul into our family into our job into our spiritual practices, whatever they may be. But it is very natural that in pouring those things into material energies that wax and wane that ebb and flow that go through peaks and valleys, it is very natural, that they will bear the appearance of being empty again. And for most of us that appearance, is terrifying. Right? Because we're, it's like it's the appearance it's the metaphorical appearance of death, of mortality of impermanence. We don't like that.

And yet somehow, in our twisted logic, we associate that, that impermanence or that space of loss or decrease or decline moving towards emptiness, we associate that with a lack of virtue, a lack of concern, a lack of goodness. And one of the most simple things that we can do to first and foremost is to just recognise that my care metre, my soulfulness metre, the amount of soul that I'm able to pour into all of these different areas of my life. These things are not renewable resources, the soul is. But if I want to pour my soul into all of these things, I have to recognise that my ability to pour the soul into things will run out, it will just hit empty spots at which point I have to go back to the well.

That looks different for everybody. Going back to the well is a you know, how many different traditions around the planet over 1000s and 1000s of years have talked about going to the well spiritually, psychologically, emotionally, and drawing from it, you know, in different ways, through different practices, and so forth. You can't go to the well, like you can't find that nourishment that re infuses soulfulness into your life. If it's too scary to admit that you don't care anymore, that your soul is feeling dead, or that something is lacking imagination or heart, or that you have no emotional investment, no sense of spiritual inspiration.

You have to first be able not just like, in rough patches of your life for one year of your life. But every single day, you have to be able to recognise I'm feeling sold dead right now. You know what I mean? Like, I'm feeling a little soulless. I'm feeling a little dry. The well is an apt image because every single day, as human beings, we get dry, we need to drink water. It's exactly the same thing spiritually. Your, your care metre is like your hydration metre. You can't care about anything in your life. If you're not, you know, if you're not hydrated spiritually. So how many of the causes in our life? You know, how many of the situations we find ourselves in our life where we're like, I'm stuck, I have to, I have to try to move forward, I need something new because I don't feel like I, I just I'm not feeling I'm not feeling it anymore. And then I need something new. Well, how much of that vicious cycle of you know, let me let me move. Let me try a new job. Let me try and try new relationship. Let me keep moving around trying to find something new that will continue sustaining the enthusiasm, the excitement, the sense of being in it.

How much of that would be fixed if we just started with a very simple thing at least three or four times a day, probably you will get to a space where you can't care anymore. You might just be in a conversation with someone suddenly, you're done caring. There's not going to be a situation like a lot of situations we may have to push through and Saturn's mantra about commitment and staying through even when we're dry. Right sat in a dry, cold planet. Staying through even when you're dry, practising your mantra meditation even when you don't want to and you're feeling dry. Whatever the case might be. There's a there is a wisdom to Saturn, just like there's a wisdom to Uranus. It says sometimes you're dry because you need to try something new.

But there's also this just profound simple teaching that's like if we could just get a little bit better and more accepting of the fact that we are not creatures that can care about what we're doing all of the time, just like if you're out in the sun and you get dehydrated working, you can just picture someone sitting under a tree under the shade of a tree drinking out of a thermos or something, drinking water, and just sitting there, and being like, I can't, I need to break, because I can't work anymore. So I'm drinking water to hydrate and you know, then my energy will come back up, and I'll go out and do stuff. Well, the same is true for your emotional, psychological, intellectual or spiritual investment in any one or anything. It is it is natural for it to get depleted. Anything that we're invested in, in this material world gets depleted.

And so you gotta gotta go to the well. And I put I wrote down some things here that I think should help us. Spiritual nourishment starts by admitting every day trying to recognise and accept without any judgement when you stop caring. And just first of all, saying, I am not an uncaring person, because right now I have stopped caring. Rather, I am a soul, in a body in material energies. And in order for me to go on carrying and doing everything with heart and soul, I need to go to the well. That's okay, that's normal. It's as normal as needing a drink of water, and stand in that with self esteem. Right? Because one of the things that I think, again, really gets us is, we can't admit that so we can't. It's taboo to take care of yourself, because it's taboo to think that for one minute you don't care. Right? Okay, so then that's the first thing. And then these are some monitors you can tell yourself for now. I can't care because I'm resting.

For now, I can't care because I trust that it's okay not to for a little bit. For now, I can't care. Because I would feel really insincere if I tried to. That doesn't make me an uncaring person. It would just feel insincere right now, just for now. For now, I can't care. Because I know that ultimately, nothing is at stake here. That's a big one, that you can step back and say, My effort, my caring is not going to make or break reality.

We tell ourselves the opposite all the time. Only you, you know, can can help change the world. It all starts with you and how much you care. The opposite is also true. Right now, I can't care. But I trust that ultimately nothing is at stake in my caring in this moment does not make or break reality. For now, I can't care because I just don't have any care left in me. And that's okay. So in this way, if we can just start to acknowledge and recognise that space and normalise it, and also, we start to normalise it for other people, you'll start to walk around if you do if you do this acknowledge your I don't care space, and then try to deliberately find things that fill you up that are as natural and as simple and life giving as a well, you know, what are those simple things for you and you just try to go there and fill up so that you have some authentic care in you again, you do this record, and suddenly you start to recognise it in the world, you start to see a world in which people are running around trying to care well empty inside, and you start to really see it. There are a lot of people who are deeply exhausted and are pretending that they care about things while running on fumes. You just start to notice it and what comes compassion. Compassion comes because you say, Oh I wish that you knew that it's not. It's not wrong or bad to be exhausted or depleted or to not care. It's, it's actually okay. So you start to feel compassion for other people.

You recognise exhaustion as a sign of someone who needs nourishment. When you become more aware of your own depletion your own, you know, need to go to the well you start seeing the exhaustion and the faint appearances and others, you start seeing their need for nourishment. And that's how we naturally get a tune to how to really care for others how to really, you know, serve others in their depletion or give something that may sincerely help. Imagine how much is really being done. How much can actually be accomplished when we're going around trying to give people that's not given to people from a space that's being acted out and sincerely, that's not they're not really receiving something then are they? Or are we you know. And in my opinion, when we embrace these teachings, um, the most fantastic thing happens, which is that we become more like Wells, each one of us, we become more inexhaustible as beings, we become more like renewable resources as beings, because the more we recognise, oh, it's the soul that's always really feeding me and everything, and I need to go to the soul to the well, and draw from it. And then you see it and other people and you naturally are inclined to help them go there.

You become more tuned with how to draw from the well of your own soul. And then suddenly, you become more and more like a well yourself. Every soul is a deep well filled with a renewable resource that can be gladly distributed everywhere to everyone. But you have to learn how to go there, you have to learn how to the need to go there. And, you know, the more we do that, also, the more that the way we serve and help people becomes something that is like the well, it's taken for granted. But we don't as people that become like wells, soulful beings don't want everyone to feel like, Oh, thank you so much for helping me, oh, thank you so much for, you know, helping me find me people will be grateful. And that's awesome. But the thing that I've noticed about a number of, of saintly people that I've had, the pleasure of knowing in my life as spiritual teachers, is that they have a way of giving that you don't fully realise until, you know, certain key moments and I go, Oh, my God, like how much has this person given, and how it's like the well you until there's some breakdown until it's not there, you you, you don't even realise how much it was giving you.

The soul is like the greatest secret for each of us in that regard. So we come slowly, slowly to realise this is the source of everything. It just keeps giving to me and giving to me, and it's always there. And it never wants to draw attention to itself. And yet it's plentiful, it's abundant, it's happy, it's secure, its content. You know, and that's how we're to become all of the great Bodhisattvas. And the way that the Buddha describes the enlightened person is being of compassion. They're a well, they've, they've figured out how to stay close to that space, how to know when they're drifting from it and need to go back without any shame. And they keep drawing from it and drawing from it. And then they become like that for other people. And other people don't even necessarily recognise it, the saintly person doesn't even necessarily want them to recognise it. Because this is the greatest secret ever. And the greatest process ever is to discover this greatest secret. And then keep passing it around. And this is different, much, much different from the loudness of Saturn and Uranus saying, Oh, I'm stuck. I just don't care. Well, I need something new. What's the new thing that I'll care about? And then I'm really passionate and fired up about it right? Like we're going to do that dance that Saturn Uranus dance, it's going to happen. But I just question is that a soulful dance? Is it soulful? If underneath it all, we're just trying to push away and not admit and just get keep as far away as we can that underneath. I regularly run out of gas. We could be the newest thing in town, the brightest object in the sky. It could be whatever the most brilliant, flashy thing.

And I will if I'm not living a soulful life, if I'm not being honest about the needs of my soul, it will become Saturn in a heartbeat. Right so, at any rate, I hope you guys enjoy this little sermon from the stars. today. I want to read you a few quotes to end with that will just kind of punctuate everything we've said I love this quote. This is from Follow the Angels by br Shughart Maharaj.

"We are taking a very courageous step now throwing ourselves at the whim of the infinite. From the tangible to the infinite, we are going to take a very courageous step. How will the infinite deal with us? Will the infinite Adore Us? Or will the infinite ignore us totally? Or will the infinite make some neck negligent arrangement for us? There is no assurance."

That sounds kind of dark writes like this sounds kind of heavy. That's the other profound thing about caring and soulfulness. Is that when you're able to tap into the well, when you're able to say I'm empty and I need filling in and actually pour soulfulness into things. There's never really an expectation about results. There's always a sense of caring for whatever I'm going to care for pouring soulfulness into whatever I will, is good in and of itself. I'm really curious to see what comes back or what develops through this tending to nurturing, caring for things that in my life was soulfulness. But there's in in the spiritual life, there is no guarantee. And that's another thing I see people struggling with, is, well, if I really care about things that are hard and difficult, eventually something good will come back to me.

And it does vary temporarily. But then, you know, it doesn't after a while, and then a person, what does a person do very Uranian. A person says, you know, I tried caring, I really did, and I got something kind of good out of it. But you know, it wasn't that great and it was a lot of effort. So Screw it. And then there's this kind of rebellious energy that comes in, how much of that could be cured. If we just said to ourselves, I'm going to care in faith. I'm going to pour soulfulness in faith, no idea what will come of it, I just I want to care for things without any expectation of return. It's like a prerequisite to cultivating some kind of intimacy with our souls, or with other people that when we're in touch with soulfulness, there's no expectation of what comes from it. There's no expectation that you know, we'll be liberated from all of our troubles or suffering. The care because it feels good to care. It feels good to be soulful.

Here's something that James Hillman wrote this is comes from a book called A Blue Fire. And he said this, this faithful attention to the imaginal world, this love which transforms mere images into presences, gives them living being or rather reveals the living being, which they do naturally contain is nothing other than re mythologizing. Psychic contents become powers spirits gods, one senses their presence as did all earlier peoples who still had soul. These presences and powers are our modern counterparts of former pantheons of living beings have animated soul parts protective household gods and ominous diamonds. These beings were mythical and that they were part of a tale or psychic drama. The same archetypal dramas are played in us and by us and through us for our behalf. Once the imaginal aspects of our lives, and of life itself is given attention. Attention is the cardinal psychological virtue. On it depends the other cardinal virtues for there can hardly be faith, nor hope, nor love for anything unless it first receives attention. And let me just suggest that it's not always that we need something new. It's a lot of the times that we need to give attention to the places in our lives where we're starting to get depleted, or we're starting to say, I just don't care.

Hillman says that everything in our life is a mirror image, which in saturnine terms means a feigned appearance. It's an empty image, and everything is like that. Until we start giving attention to the soul. You give attention to the soul, then you really start to care. Because the soul is what pours animate energy into the images into the things in life that are otherwise dead. Objective the gears and o'clock. So, pour some soul on, you know, I mean, like, as we were that song, I remember who it was by Def Leppard or something, pour some sugar on me remember that pour some soul on me, that's what I want for Christmas. I want some soul. And I want I'm going to work my New Year's resolution is to become much more aware of those everyday moments because it's it's really everyday stuff. It's not the big stuff like oh, I, I just don't care anymore about the big concerns of civilization or I don't care anymore. It's usually it's really small stuff. I've stopped caring about the work that I'm doing right now. I've stopped caring about the conversation I'm having, you know, you get to that point. When you reach that point, make it a practice to pay attention to it and see what it is because usually that moment is not the evidence that you are an uncaring person as much as it is the evidence that you need to go to the well.

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